As I said in my title, I am proud of myself that I am able to make it to today. I am surprised at myself in fact that I am able to endure so much discomfort and pain to this very day. I bet you can't imagine how it is, most especially when your family is throwing a party and you can't eat because you don't know how the food would pass through your mouth.

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Since the feeling is no longer endurable and I am not patient enough to let the drugs I got work on me, plus how critical my condition is already, I have booked an appointment with a surgeon tomorrow and I hoped to be operated on by tomorrow.

SO DO YOU BELIEVE IN MIRACLES?

Talking about yesterday night, it was like a miracle. I guess you would be wanting to know why I am saying this. I wrote a post yesterday thinking of how I would go to bed, how I would sleep because I was in pain; still is but not as before.

So I went to bed, but I couldn't sleep. I was lying on my bed, without touching my phone. My mother and grandmother, unable to sleep due to my illness and the difficulty I was having retaining my saliva and breathing, had no choice but to pray for me while I lay. After about 40 minutes to an hour of prayer, they returned to their various rooms. Because you know how I was feeling, I was still awake.

They left to their individual rooms while I remained on my bed struggling with sleep. Then somehow I lost consciousness and work up again. I know it wasn't a long sleep because the time was 5 am in the morning.

But when I woke up, I was in lesser pain and a more comfortable situation than I was. I believed the prayers of my mum and granny must have been answered. Although, I am not 100% well yet but still better than the way I was yesterday.

HOW DO I THINK OF TOMORROW?

I know after tomorrow's surgery, I may still have to go through some transition before I get myself better. I have read about other people's experiences after taking this surgery I would be taking and I found that it is not a quick process but at least, there would be a relief.

Right now, I don't have the ability to speak, so I don't receive calls. I communicate to my family with signs and when they don't understand me, I write on paper. that's how my situation is at the moment.

Now I know the feeling of being dumb. It is not easy being one.

Never been in surgery, and this would be my first. Hopefully, all would go well.

Read my previous post below to catch up

I HOPE TO GET BETTER SOON
WORRIED ABOUT THE NIGHT